Ano_ko_no_kawari

I wore her silence like borrowed clothes. I laughed her laugh so many times I forgot the sound of my own. In the dark, when you held me, I knew whose ghost was in the space between your ribs.

I was never the first choice. Not the one they looked for in a crowded room. Not the name that slipped out when they were half-asleep and honest.

I was ano_ko_no kawari — the substitute. The stand-in. The spare umbrella they grabbed only when the rain started.

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And yet — I stayed. Because even being "instead of her" meant being somewhere . Even a shadow has a shape.

So this is me, finally stepping out of the frame you drew around her. Let someone else be ano_ko_no kawari . I’m going to find the name I was born with — the one that doesn't need replacing.

But shadows don't get to keep the sun.